Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Prima goodness!!

Head on over to the Prima blog at http://prima.typepad.com/prima/ and take a peek at all the beautiful goodness that is there.

I love Prima products, especially the flowers. I can't ever get enough of them! I seriously drool on my keyboard when I look at all the new items they introduce. The layouts on the blog are just gorgeous!! Go take a look! You won't regret it!

I have been anxiously awaiting my first design team assignment from Scrapper's Playground.
Scrappin' again has been slow, but, I'm working on it. It's been really difficult to make time for myself lately. Not that I don't want to. I've just been trying to adjust to life without my father in it.

Last week I started taking an anti-depressant. Hoping I'd start to feel more like my old self. While I did start to feel more cheerful, the side effects drove me bonkers. Insomnia, and nausea were the worst. I can handle a lack of appetite - *wink* but, not sleeping, that I can't handle! Not sleeping was seriously affecting my mental state. So, I stopped taking the anti-depressant, and within two days, I was back to sleeping, and after 4 days off of it, I'm back to sleeping 8 hours at night. Whew!! No more of that for me. I'm going to just keep focusing on the good stuff. Reminding myself that my father would want me to be happy, and cheerful. He wouldn't want me to be so sad, and down all the time. Plus, once the boys are back to school September 8th, I'll have a regular routine, and structured day. That, in itself, will make me a much happier person.

That's all for now.
Love and hugs.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Seriously, this kitten will sleep anywhere, in any position!

Have you ever seen anything so precious before? I love my little baby.

Surprise! (Sometimes good things do happen, even if the days bring a lot of tears, and sadness)

These last weeks have been so difficult. I alternate between just making it through each day without tears, to days filled with tears. This past Saturday night was terrible. I was washing some things by hand in the sink that are too big for the dishwasher, and I just broke down sobbing. I was crying so hard, I felt physically ill. Ugh, just so awful. I think I scared Joey a bit, but, he hugged me. Then, I calmed down.

I've never felt so lost. I lost the one man in the world who loved me, for me. I'll never have that again. I'll never have someone there, a male someone, who just accepts me for who I am. There have been men who said they loved me, for me, but in the end, when all was said and done, they wanted me to change something....

Anyway, enough of that for this post....now, on to the surprise part.

I took a drive over to Scrapper's Playground today. I wanted to see what was new - because there is always something new coming in! I bought some paper, and then chatted with Dee for a while. I love her, she's so sweet, and kind. It's wonderful to talk to her. All the time. When I was there, Sue, the owner, told me that she would like me to be on the design team for the store, and was I interested?!

Am I interested?! You bet!

I'm so excited, and surprised, too!


And, I got a Cricut Expression on Monday! I've been loving all the fun things it can do. It's amazing how many more options there are on this machine. Now, I just have to get myself organized, and scrap.