Tuesday, February 19, 2008

....nervousness....*shivers*

I'm not sure why, but, I'm really nervous about traveling tomorrow. I have knots in my stomach, and I'm working myself into a nervous frenzy. It's crazy, I know. I have to calm down, or I'll make myself ill. But, I can't. I have such an unsettled feeling in regards to flying, and it isn't a good feeling. Steve has told me to calm down, my kids look at me like I'm nuts. They are all going to be at home here. I'm going alone. Maybe that's it. Ugh...

I am *really* looking forward to my brother's wedding on Friday. He's excited, the girl he's marrying is excited. They are great together, and they are a wonderful husband and wife team. Maybe if I can just concentrate on that, I'll get over this Nervous Nellie feeling?!

I wish my mother could be there. I know she will be, in our hearts, and memory. It's odd, Friday is the two year anniversary of her passing. I wonder how emotional it will be. My brother told me that he wants me to read something he wrote in tribute to mom, during the ceremony. I told him he 'sucks', because he knows how much I hate to talk in front of people. Especially people I don't know very well. Blah, he has put me on the spot with this, but, I'm honored that he asked me to do it, instead of our brother. I'm honored, that they both asked me to be in the wedding party, and feel a bit sad, that our brother isn't in the wedding party. But, they had a fight, and he was kicked out of the bridal party. So - now, he's just going to be at the wedding.

I have a funny feeling, that the next three days are going to be crazy. Tomorrow is a crazy travel day, and we're all going out at night, Thursday is the rehearsal, and dinner. Thursday night, I think that there is something else planned, and Friday is going to be crazy getting ready. Hair appointments, dressing, pictures, and then on to the ceremony, and reception afterwards. The rest of the weekend will be busy, visiting with dad, and other relatives that are flying to Florida for the wedding, too.

So, now, it's time for bed. It's up and at 'em early in the morning!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

....pain....

I hurt my back....big time. I'm not sure how, but, I'm in major pain. I woke up Monday morning, hardly able to stand up straight, moving one foot in front of the other proved a challenge. So, I ended up at home, all day, on the sofa. Taking pain meds...yay for Vicodin.

On Tuesday morning, I felt a bit better, so, I went to work. That may not have been the best idea, because by the time I was heading to the school to get Joey, the pain was in my left hip, and down my left leg. *cries*

Today - was so bad...I didn't work. I couldn't even walk this morning. The day was spent sitting either on the sofa, or in this chair here, straight up. Pain meds on board, Icy Hot rubbed into the back, hip, and leg. I hate it when I hurt.

I'm hoping that I'll feel better tomorrow - really. I do have a job, and responsibilities out of the house. But, if not, then I guess the work will just have to wait. But, this will prove interesting if I still feel so awful on Friday - I have a new season to set for work. :( I may end up calling my boss and asking for some assistance - something I've never done in my time with this job. But, I may not have a choice.

I just hope that I am pain free by next week, so that I can wear the shoes I picked out for my brother's wedding. If not, I'll be shopping for a new dressy low shoe to wear with my gown.

here's to hoping the pain is gone soon! Oh, and that I'll be able to get to the gym sometime soon, too!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

1 day to break a routine, and 21 days to make it habit...

Jen, and I, joined a gym. Planet Fitness. It's brand new, and the grand opening is this week.

It originally began, as Jen joining with all her friends. Which she still did. Only, she had to go back to sign up, because she doesn't have a credit card yet, and she didn't have her checkbook with her. So, I took her back to do her sign up. While there, she kept saying, "mom - you should join too", and "we can come here together!!". But, I didn't join up right then.

Later, at home, throughout the evening, I kept thinking how cheap it is. Jen's program was $20 to start, and $10 a month. No commitment, no buyout fee. For that price, I really couldn't afford *not* to do it. So, on Friday morning, before going to scrapbooking, I went to sign up for a membership.

I got the plan, that was $0 down, and $19.99 a month. There is a yearly fee of $39.99 - which won't be billed until June. There is also a 12 month commitment, and a $58 buyout. But - I think that's reasonable - and I really don't expect to quit.

This gives me unlimited guest privledges, half off their beverages, unlimited tanning - which I won't use, unlimited use of the massage chairs, and free use of franchise locations - which, let's face it, I'm not going to drive to any other location, when this place is 11 minutes away. The best part, is being able to bring a guest with me 7 days a week. I can't bring multiple guests each day, it's only one guest a day, but, that's okay. So, I can alternate the boys, or maybe I can get Steve to go with me. Or, if Jen's friend Jackie wants to check it out, she can some with us, and exercise with Jen. It's all good, and well worth the $20 a month.

I'm really excited, and so is she. I have never been on a treadmill. *gasp* I've never had any real workout routine, aside from walking at the track. So, this will be universally different for me. And, Jen, too! But, we are SO ready for it, and giddy with excitement. So tomorrow is day 1 of breaking my routine of barely exercising, and hopefully, after 21 visits, this will be a new habit in my life.